**sObs...**

All good things come to an end. Real soon.

Zhao xing, lohon and ivan came to my house at 6.30 to send me off. I'm so touched. Yet so sad. In the car i was sobbing secretly. Then went to the bus station.

I cried in front of my parents.

It was the first time in so long that i cried in front of them. They didn't know what to do. Dad hugged me. I went on to the bus and cried again. The whole journey i was trying to hold back tears. Then i kept praying and praying dat God would make me happy. Give me the Joy i need. It never came till i reached Singapore itself.

"Expect good things to happen. Because God loves you."

Went back to the hostel with a cheery mood. Talked on the phone and unpacked my stuff, clean up my room etc. Then i found out my laptop could detect other ppl's wifi connection haha. So can go online for free. Though the signal's not to strong. :/

Then went for dinNer. Funny la. Christopher's handphone rang when the boarding master was praying after our assembly in the dining hall. And of all the tones it was the happy tree friends. HAha. You could just imagine. We were told off for laughing though.

Then had study time. It's good to have roomates. It's not so lonely now. :)

**My last day... :(**

Zhao Xing came with ivan at 6.30 to pick me up. Guess where we went? Hehe. Klang! To eat bah ku teh. :P Couldn't find the real good bah ku teh but the one we had was good lar. :) Talked had fun etc.

Then went to pick lohon up. Went to the cafe. Played DoTa. But i suck too bad. So we switched to Enfo. Den i still sucked too bad so we played Gunbound. ARGHH.. my account has been deleted i think. Too long nv play d. All my experience points,all my avatar, my ranking all gone...sigh. But it was fun hehe.

Then went to one u to watch initial D. Not bad lar. Played pool and fuzball as well. Then went to see Weishin who only came back today. After that went to church.

Dinner was at Greenview. We had crab. Then i went home and packed.

**I love today...**

Went to ivan's house this morning. Spent sometime together before took a bus to KL. Hehe. Miss talking to him. Just miss him.

Took a bus down to KL. Walked Petaling Street but there were no decent earrings on sale. All rusted ones haha. Then we went to Kota Raya. Ate lunch and talked. Then went to the arcade to play some games hehe. Then we went back to his house.

Waited a while then went to Lohon's place. He was gonna help him install Warcraft 3. Was unsuccessful though. Then jess called. We went to eat at McDs. Talked sumore.

Then Zhao Xing drove us to Bukit Kiara for the Starlight Cinema thing. Watched Kunfu Hustle. Won some prizes at those funny games... So much fun lar. Haha. Under the night sky sumore. Hehe. Then went home. :)

**Batman Begins...**

Nothing much today.

Went to midvalley to watch movie with Jit Han, Jia Xin, Quin Er, Wan Qian and Sien Hao. Thanks to Jit Han i had transport there :)

Oh yeah there was this guy who fainted near the ticketing counter. People were looking on and didn't know what to do. Some people around him tried to wake him up. Quin Er went straight down to the clinic and called the doctor. And the guy was saved. I hope. Anyway. Quin er was SO BRAVE. She's my hero. :)

Watched Batman Begins. It's real good. Didn't know Batman had no superpowers. Oh but wait, i do think his Mind is his superpower... :)

**Jay chou only marhh....**

Heh. Jox came over at 11 this morning. We then walked to one u together. Quite fun. Reached one u Giant carpark. The whole initial D thingy is being prepared. Some of the cars were already on display...

Then we went in to GSC. They were giving out free tickets today. So we lined up. THough it was 11 in the morning the queue was already quite long. Then halfway chin zhen called jox. Sigh. CZ didn't wanna come in to one u. Wanted jox to go out. SOOO....she did. And she apologised over and over again. Haha. What a familiar scene... Anyway i got tickets to Kingdom of Heaven.

Went down and met Lee Ting. We walked around then found a place to eat. ZUUP soup bar. Always wanted to try but never did come. Finally a chance. :) Ordered set lunches. THere was free PS2 to play! Hehe. Played NFS till our food came. Then ivan came to join us. We then switched to streetfighter then metal slug...haha so fun.

Den it was time to go into the cinema. Foogie and Lup wai were on the way. I decided to wait for them outside while the others went in. But ivan offered to do it in my place... so sweet :)

Movie was great!! Kingdom of Heaven so totally rocks!!

Then we went out to the carpark again. A lot of people were already there. Met some CHS people. Quite a few actually. Shou Jun, Suan Aik etc... I even met Sue Wen...haha, my hostel mate n school mate in singapore.

The drifting started. So cool...but then ivan had to go :( Den jay chou, yumanlok, edison chen and wong chau sang all came. They were there for about 10-15 minutes only. All the time was spent jumping and squeezing. But had a look at them lar. Not so bad. Wsan't wasted.

THen had dinner with with Foogie and Lup Wai. Then went home.

Went to the dentist with ivan, then went to cut hair.

I like it when they wash my hair. =) RM18, worth it lar. But my hair sucks now. I look like a little kid. A little nerdy kid. =(

Den went to ivan's house to wait for kok yi. He came and picked us up. Then 3 of us, we went to Taylor's to meet Ming Shiu. She had just finished her exams.

Sat down, ate and talked for hours. Haha, we talked the whole afternoon away. Wow. Life in Taylor's is so cool. What they learn in Tourism is...wow! So fun. They get hands-on practice more than any other course i think. They get to plan real travel packages and organise them as well. Then they get to go to France for 2 weeks just for language studies i think. Wow. And the subjects. Not some boring math. French, English, Tourism Industry, Geography etc... Haha. These people really know how to have fun. =)

Well afer that. Went back to ivan's house. Loaded some pictures. Then went home.

Quite boring a day. But i got to hug ivan. =) Just held him for a long, long time, before i leave for a long, long time again. =(

cake, strawberries, curry fishballs and fries.

**cake, strawberries, curry fishballs and fries.**

Woke up again with the same feeling. Depression seeps in. Only 5 days left here. I pray for joy. It doesn't come. Then i try to numb myself --- tv, nothing good on tv; com, no one's online. Joy still as far away as i remember it to be. Kept praying for joy to come. =)

Shae Ree's dad came to pick me up at about 1pm. As i thought about stuff that i was thinking bout previously, there seemed to be a different light, hope, yeah there was hope. =P I guess the feeling of joy never came. All i had was the knowledge that God will be with me no matter what. How bad can it be? =P

Anyway. Went to college. Reached there at around 1.30. As i took the lift up and the lift opened at every floor i got to say hi to some people. Haha, i love to see the surprised look on everyone's face. 'WHat are you doing back here?!' Haha. Too bad i only got to see a few. Darn. Their exams started.

Sat in the study room and tried to do my econs homework. Did a bit. But mostly wasted time. Haha, went down to get a sandwich when their exam was over. Darn. i missed 2 lifts up to the 6th and 9th floor. By the time i got there nearly everyone was gone. Had the opportunity to see and hug jeanie, vivian and lee chee though. =) Oh i saw sam, hui lynn, wee li and talked to ganesh, neil and chee jian. Haha. Those were the fun days. Walked pass Ms. Ting but couldn't stop to talk. =/ Lift was there. Everyone's in a rush! Can't anyone slow down!? pLeASE??!!

Too bad though. Didn't meet many people. Ivan so down coz of the math exam sumore. So sad. =( But had the privilege to go 'yam cha' with shae ree, jox, tcc and ivan. =) Went to bangsar and had cake. Haha, shae ree's definition of yam cha quite classy. Malaysia's best tiramisu! Hehe, cost us 10-11 bucks each. Worse, TCC had ordered carrot juice that costs 11.50. Haha must be made out of the world's best carrots or something. Talked a lot. Laughed a lot too. Was made envious of what they had lined up for the holidays. Genting, lee hom and UK! ...

Went to SS2 pasar malam after that. TCC bought strawberries. RM10 for 3 boxes! Wow! I bought curry fishballs too... hungry. The 3 for 10 earrings are so old and rusty. =( So disappointed.

Den on the way back we opened up the box of strawberries. At first me n shae ree got sour ones. Jox got the good one. Then i asked jox to pick one for me. She picked one but shae ree snatched it! So jox gave me another one. Haha turned out shae ree's was sour. Mine was sweeeeet! =) Haha see! Doesn't pay to be evil ;) If only we had cream and honey...

Went to one u again with my mom. Bought McDonalds. A regular Fillet o Fish set for my bro and 2 large fries. Hehe. Mom kept stuffing the fries into her mouth, in between bites she kept saying, "better not eat too much of these stuff, it's bad....blah blah blah...". Haha. I was so afraid she'd finish my fries... =P

Went back home. Me, my dad and my mom shared out the 2 large fries. Couldn't stop eating. Ahhh! I could already feeel my tummy. Feel so guilty. Can't sleep too early tonight or i'll have a HUGE belly. =( *yawn...*

Day could've been better with proper planning. Thank God anyway. =)

That'll be 70 dollars, sing dollars, please.

**That'll be 70 dollars, sing dollars, please.**

Seems like every morning i wake up on the wrong side of the bed. The first thing that comes to my mind is, "there you go. Another day gone. Only so much time before you have to leave this place". Slowly i sink into depression once again. Sigh. It's the devil again lar. So i tell myself to treasure EVERY moment left. Not easy to do. But again, its the joy of the Lord. It's not a feeling, it knows no circumstance. Hope beyond explanation. =) Yeah!

It's Father's Day today. Zhao xing's birthday. And lohon's dad's birthday. Had maggi mee for breakfast =( and waited for zhao xing to pick me up. Haha, talked a bit. Hmm, i could sense this kai gor of mine not very happy leh. Aiyo sorry ar didn't wish you happy birthday at the stroke of twelve. Sorry larrr... Haha. We went over to ivan's house where we waited again, for lohon to come.

Meanwhile we were watching Finding Nemo. You just can't get sick of it, can you? Hehe... Lohon came late, as usual, around 1 hour late, as usual. But we decided to watch on, finish the show before we went out for lunch. We went out to this italian restaurant just outside ivan's house.

Then i casually said, "zhao xing ar, i forgot something in the car can i go take it?". Took the car keys n i left. Ivan said he had to go back to get the camera too so we went back together. haha =P We had a surprise in store for him!! =D

We had bought all these car accesories n stuff, all in red, to match his red fontera. All same pattern, "Patrick" was on all of them haha. Pillows, tissue box holder, head rest. =P So cute!! We took out all the stuff we had bought from ivan's room and started ACCESORISING. So fun. Haha.

Then we realised. His car was parked right in front of the gate and ivan's dad was gonna be back soon. Father's Day, wouldn't want father to have to scold son so there was only one way to do it. Ivan, you gotta re-park the car! Haha. He kept saying NO! dun dare lar, such a big car... but in the end, brave little guy, he decided to go for it. He drove real slowly, one round and hit the curb at one point, luckily only the tyre kena. Nothing wrong. Hehe, and he DID IT!! I'm so proud of him =) We went back hurriedly.

Wah! SO FULL! really cannot finish the food lar. Can't believe it... servings look so small yet so filling lar. Sat there and talked while we tried to finish up the food. When the bill came, it came automatically, as usual, to zhao xing. Haha. But today his birthday lar cannot like dat. So d 3 of us paid =P

Zhao xing was real shocked i guess when he saw what was in his car. Said thank you. Oh yeah did i mention he was SO SHOCKED when he heard ivan actually drove his car. =p

Well we went over to ivan's house, zhao xing play warcraft, lohon play my phone's v-rally, ivan trying to study, i ... wasting time. Den me n ivan went to check out some photographs from the wedding he went to yesterday. Hehe, in the end got to check my mail and stuff lo... at least the company was good =) Den zhao xing dropped me home again =)

Reached home, slept till dinner time =)

Crabs!! Hehe, mom had heard how i wanted to eat crabs yesterday at Coca so she bought live crabs. Argh. But i missed the killing part. Bro had the privilege to stab them with chopsticks this morning. Crabs were great la =)

Went upstairs and read the 2nd chapter of "the Applause of Heaven". It was sooo beautifully written!! The truth is even better. "Come to me those who are weary and i will give you rest", says Jesus. There's no better rest than being with Jesus i guess =) The trick is to breathe in deep on the summit with God before you go crazy down at the marketplace...

Then my mom called me to her room. I lay on her bed as she did a facial treatment on me. Hehe, she stole some tricks from the beautician she pays RM70 to come every other week. My dad came in and said, "That'll be 70 dollars, sing dollars, please". Haha. How true. Guess i'm so blessed huh. Hehe, yeah i am, praise God for that.

Then i met lohon online. Oooh he was in trouble coz he had lots to do, had to prepare a presentation but has not started yet! Serve God and serve OTHERS. This is a great opportunity. Helping people, what more my own 'tou dai' haha. Spent bout an hour looking through reference books and going through the points with him. Thank God for free audio conversations on MSN. Don't think i helped much lar actually coz mine's A Levels sylabus, he's is foundation in Arts. And my econs ... ergh... it sucks. But a little help goes a long way i guess ;)

Oh yeah, met jonathan online. After that yew jhin came on. ARGH...stop nudging me! I'm so gonna get you tomorrow. =P Not wat God would like me to do though.

Hehe well, the time well spent till the very last hour. Thank God again. =)

Sacred Delight

**Have you been to the market place?**

Was woken up by my dad this morning at 9am, "what do you want for breakfast?", he asked.

Hehe. How lucky to be able to get breakfast of your choice without having to lift a finger, literally. Then it got me thinking again, life's going to be so empty again back in Singapore. Go back to school, come back from school, study, sleep... It's then i realise, it's not hardship i'm afraid of. It's emptiness, loneliness. As i'm falling deep into depression again i ask myself WHY?! i was just so hyped up for God yesterday! Then it's when i remembered, Satan will come for you especially when you have in you a passion for God. He hates it. AHHHH go away, i'm going to make life meaning-ful in Singapore. It's not going to be easy but i WILL fill up the emptiness. No matter what, i can do it because of Him. =)

Read the first part of the book joel gave me, the Applause of Heaven. It talks about sacred delight. A joy so great, a joy that can only be found in a child of God. It is the Joy of the Lord. It is what it is, it is Joyful regardless of circumstances. =) The key to eternal happiness : to have in you the ultimate joy, the sacred delight!! You don't have to work hard to for it! It is in you when you have Him in your heart. =)

Went for lunch at Coca's coz my brother had won a RM25 voucher in a lucky draw previously. Mmmm, pineapple fried rice, tom yam soup steamboat, ahh!! Blessed i am. At the end of the meal one of the waiters came with a large glass bowl with pieces of paper in it. Lucky draw again haha! My brother, now the lucky charm, picked one and guess what?! Another RM25 voucher to Coca's. HAHA! =P

Then went to church. Tears were flowing so freely during praise and worship. I still don't know why. But i felt something. Something strong, something sacred, something delightful. =) There were guest pastors, missionaries from the States. What are the attitudes that can change the world? Go to the market place of human needs! Pastor Joshua's birthday today. We had cake! =) Mmm, chocolate.

Dad came to pick me up and send me to school. Met lots of people again. Helped out a bit with the pbc performance and went out with Ming Shiu, Yee Wah and Siew Mun to yam cha. =) My JI MUIs haha (short of wan qian), how i miss you prople. I love you guys!!! We had girl talk for hours till Lup wai came.

Talked a little while longer till it was past midnight. It's so nice of lup wai to send me back home when his home is on the other side of the world. Thank you lup wai!!! Sure repay you when i drive wan =P Oh yeah, before that his engine couldn't start. I prayed. And God made the engine go again. Praise the Lord! =P We drove back to have a last look at CHS. How i miss the days... Nice songs were playing in his car, one song, "zhen xin ying xiong", was a song wan qian taught me. Brings back so many memories. I love all you guys, just wish you would experience what the love, the ultimate love God has given us...

Reached home before 1am. Not too bad an achievement =P

Time today not wasted. Praises to Him again =)

Eh Jesus ar, what's your favourite colour ar?

**Eh Jesus ar, what's your favourite colour ar?**
Woke up at 7am this morning to go to the market. Hehe yeah, the market. Helped mom carry some stuff and had char kuey teow for breakfast after that... yum. =)

Then sam came to pick me up then we went to school! Met lup wai, foogie, siu yean, kok soon, jing wen, lai yen, jia ci n so many from form 6!!! Heh. Kinda miss school life. Always ponteng-ing class 2 prepare for performances or events n stuff. Oh n relief periods too when teachers are not around...

Met pbc ppl too =) Wan qian, li jun, ching chui, yi hui, corey, ah peng n the whole gang. Haha. sO cUtE lar they all sang for me... =) So touched. Met Cik Lum too. (Hmmm yeah, food there is expensive...) Haha.

Anyway. Went to CF today. I can't believe after being a christian for so long i don't even know basic stuff like what puan joyce was teaching today. Being able to speak in tongues is not a sign of the Holy Spirit in you. It's merely one of the many gifts God decides to give when you recieve the Holy Spirit. The true evidence is when you have the fruit of the spirit --- Love. Wanna be the salt and the light of the earth? Love more. =)

Had lunch with the CFers after. Sat at the back of ET's four wheel drive, =P the car boot. Haha. Reached Salvation at SS2, went down to look for a devotional book. Joel decided to follow since its' not everyday i'm back in malaysia. Looked through the books n found i couldn't afford them. =( All oso 30+ ringgit. Was gonna give up and wait till my parents were with me when joel gave me a book wrapped in this cute baby gift wrapper. Heh it was Max Lucado book, "Applause of Heaven". Definitely not cheap. So sweeetttt.... =) Thanks joel!!

Then we talked a lot bout God and life. His testimonies of life in his hostel at TAR are just amazing!! Read bout it in his blog! (It's in my links) Just focus on God's love, remember that you're a child of God. You're on favoured ground no matter where you go. Humble yourself and God will work wonders IN YOU, THROUGH YOU. =) It's not by our effort that anything is achieved,it's in His love for us.

[If you wanna be a child of God if you're not already one pls do tell me, call me, sms me, spam my mail whatever =P]
----> Poor attempt at witnessing =P Forgive me heh.

Anyway called ivan n he came n joined us. 3 of us walked to the LRT station. Joel prayed for both of us before he left. =) Thanks again joel. Had so much to tell ivan... but was exhausted by then. Halfway through i had to stop. Too much excitement from the thought of what God might do in me. =) Then dad came.

Went to care group after dinner. Was anticipating. Is ivan going to come? He came!! Though late. Heh. So happy =) Too bad couldn't stay longer. Dad came quite early. Still had lots to say. Argh. =( Every moment of it not taken for granted though ;)

Not a single precious moment wasted today. Praise God. =)

An idle mind is the Devil's workshop

Had nothing to do this morning but read this chinese book i had to finish before holiday ends. (Stupid assignment). Couldn't really concentrate.

My mind wandered off.

Time's passing fast. Real fast. I'm trying to grab every moment of it and live it to the very very fullest. But i can't really do that. Every moment here that i waste feels so painful. Time has never seemed so precious to me. Then i think of why i'm studying in Singapore in the first place. I have better, much easier options if i think of what i want to do in the future. The fact that i know it's God's will for me to be there is my only staying power.

Wandering back, tried contacting ivan on his handphone. Couldn't reach him. Don't remember how many times i've dialled his number. =( I've only seen him once in all 5 days i've been back.

Meanwhile i went online. Played Yahoo Pool with sam and got thrashed like nobody's business. Eesh. But it was fun. Lost 9 in 10 i think. It's quite laughable. =P

Then finally i get through to ivan! He passed his driving test! Joy!! =) Made plans.

Met ivan and lup wai at the curve and went shopping for stuff. Zhao xing's birthday gift. =)

Haha lohon called to ask me for my IC number, saying he was gonna check if i kean NS or not. He then called back to tell me that i was selected. The fact that he had the idea that i might actually believe him is already quite funnneee. Haha. Lohon woh. 'Water fish' King. How to believe. But yet again i fall prey to his prank. =S Let's mention it no more.

Couldn't find something good... so we went to SS2, had dinner at nasi kandar's and went to the pasar malam with lohon. We found the perfect gift for zhao xing!! I shall not enclose details should zhao xing suddenly visit my blog. Wouldn't wanna spoil the surprise ;)

Oh btw i'm on an ice-cream frenzzyyy!!! Had swensen's on monday and tuesday, had mdm kwan's ice cream on tuesday too, on wednesday was mcdonald's strawberry sundae, today - ikea's RM1 ice cream cone and SS2 pasar malam's fried ice cream. Yum. =)

Went home quite early after that.

A day not totally wasted. =) And i thank God for the privilege.

hmm.

went shopping alone today. one u. bumped into shea kang, pheobe, harold and gang.

ooh ooh ooh did you know?! next monday to wednesday you can watch movies for free at the new GSC in one u. U just need to cut out the coupons from the Star. Joy! =)

wonder what everyone else is busy with...

...

went to midvalley today. Jit han, jia xin, sien hao, sing ping, jin soon n lee ting were there. =) sing ping came even when she's sick. i'm so touched! Thanks to sien hao too. He chose to meet me over DoTA, unlike some people i know...hmph...hope u had fun eong xien. met david the monkey boy, dilin n jermyn as well.

Had lunch at Yoshinoya's n talked a lot. I miss people in Malaysia. Haven't had the chance to talk so much in so long. Haven't had the chance to laugh that much either. =P

Then my dear quin er came!!! Heh she came after futsal. Don't laugh at her lar. HAHA =P. Anyway we went to eat, again. This time at Mdm Kwan's. Talked more. Then david n dilin joined in. =)

Walked around a bit and met a couple of quin er's college mates. Then we decided to go to jin soon' house. I went on david's car n haha, gotta hand it to him, he's improved much from the day he nearly knocked sien hao down. Nice car btw. Complete with the new car smell.... =)

We were greeted by jin soon's guard dog, grusty. Don't think it likes people at all. After a short visit i went home in quin er's car.

Quin er sang "God bless the broken road" and i recorded her voice! She keeps calling me crazy and asks me to stop it but... we all know quin er just loves it doesn't she ;) Haha. Then we started singing every song that came to mind. spongebob, spiderman, powerpuff girls etc. I could imagine it was torture to sien hao, sitting quietly at the back, suffering in silence. =p Thanks for putting up with it ya.

Ooh yeah it's my dad's birthday today. We went to Swensens again coz it's EarthQuake day!! Half price on 8 scoops of your choice.. AHHH!!! Don't think they were half as excited as i was though. =P I loveeee ice creaammmmm. *Smacks lips*
Haha. Haven't laughed so much in a long long time. Thanks people. I had fun. Can't find classmates like you guys ever again.

Woke up late this morning! Feels so good to be up only past 9!! Haha.

Went to 1U today. Was supposed to meet ivan. Knew he was gonna come out behind me or something so i kept looking past the shoulder. Right when i was staring at my phone he came up behind me. I'd like to say it was expected, but no. =P Missed him lots. Watched Mr. n Mrs Smith. It's ... quite funny. Worth watching lar.

Hehe when we came out we saw jia xin n jit han!! ahh! They were just bout to go in for Mr. n Mrs. Smith too! Talked for a while then had cake after. Secret Recipe!!! Miss it so much!!! In Singapore it's more expensive than it is here, BEFORE conversion! Ordered Chocolate Indulgence... yummmm.....

Then while walking back home, we decided to pay our dear eong xien a visit. As always. Went in, tumpang on his com game and go out.

Help me!

haha i just HAVE to share this testimony.

The night before i was going home i forgot to collect my passport from the hostel office and it was closed already. I got Ms. Janet to get it for me. She's so nice! Thank God.

After i got it i took the elevator up to the 6th floor n tapped my access card to open the glass door. "BEEEPPP---" it didn't open. It was then that i realized it was already pass midnight. (For security reasons your access card won't work anywhere after 12) I didn't bring out my handphone sumore. OH MY GOSH. I was gonna spend the night there unless someone happens to walk by and see me.

Desperate i was. I smashed my knuckles onto the glass door. KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK! Help! Then I remembered. Ms. Janet! She must still be out! I went down to the 5th floor and found that i had missed her just by a little bit!! AHH!!

I prayed. I went up and down the 5th and 6th floor hoping someone might come out of their room to go to the toilet or something and would see me. Then this brilliant idea just came to my mind. I went down to the office where i could see the rooms. I waited. Then i saw one of the house mistresses. She just happened to be walking by on the 5th floor. I shouted and waved my hands like crazy! Thank God she spotted me. I was saved.

Praise the Lord. =)

go ren xin go!

Today's ren xin's ballet competition! Go ren xin! Haha.

Bumped into yew jhin online 1 hour before they were about to leave for the Malaysian Tourism Centre. 1 hour later shea kang's parents came to pick me up. Then we were on our way! Ahh! We had to pay 15 bucks just to get in. That was before we found out there was a door behind the seats we could've just gotten in through. Ren Xin owes us each 15 bucks! Haha. Si Jie and Eu Harn joined in later.

Ren xin was great! (I can't tell very much great from not-so-great though) Anyway she got consolation, which is really good d lar seeing it was only 3 days of preparation compared to the others who had the whole year. Cheer up girl!

Then i took the LRT home. Wow it seems so small compared to the MRT in singapore.

home.

I’m HOME!! Finally I’m HOME!! AAHHH! I can’t describe how it feels to see the sofa again, to see the tv again n …oh my gosh… to see my room again!!

Haha. Slept for a while n I went to church. So happy to see everyone again =) E.T. n Li En were going to City Harvest Church for a Hillsong Conference!!! so I hopped along.

Haha!! I never knew there was a City Harvest Church in Malaysia too! We went in E.T.’s car to pick Tian An up too! Haha so happy! We were singing and making so much noise in E.T’s car. We ‘da-pau’ed KFC and ate in E.T.’s car. We finished in like, 5-10 minutes. Super fast lar! Coz we were kinda late =P

We went in and… WHOA! The praise n worship and everything was so… AWESOME! You could feel the energy bouncing off the walls, (as Tian An described it) and God’s presence was felt SO strongly!!! While I was praising n worshipping it’s like the future seemed brighter n…AHH! Dunno how to explain but I saw so many possibilities for the future! Hopefully I can be consistent and work toward it in God’s grace. I really wanna see them come true!!! The sermon after that was really powerful! What a privilege to be the Salt and Light of the Earth!

Anyway after that we said hi to everyone. I didn’t know Felicia and Ken were in that church till I saw them. =P After that in the car we were just so excited lar. We kept talking and talking and talking bout how God makes all sorts of crazy things happen in our lives! Crazy is good, actually. We gotta step out of the boat!!

Oh yeah, and there was E.T. and his obsession with his new camera. Haha, one hand on the wheel one hand taking pictures. Quite scary actually =P Me n Tian An held tightly to our seats –gulp! But... Walau! E.T. really skill lar. The pictures came out so nice! Ahh! I’m just so excited bout the future now. It’s such a privilege being a child of God. No matter how much you love Him, He loves you more. So happy =)

i can't sing!

Went for math class in the morning and had project work discussion after.
It's one of my classmates' brithday tomorrow (Wan Wei) – Happy birthday Wan Wei! and we were supposed to have a class outing today. We were going to K-Box to sing our lungs out =P News was, though, that it was cancelled this morning coz ppl who were gonna turn out were few.

Our PDG tutor (class teacher), Mr. Hong heard bout it and scolded us. “Your class is so boring!”, he said, miserable class outings only have so few people if there were any at all. “What’s wrong with you guys?!”, that was what he really wanted to say. In a way, it made us change our mind. Haha, quite offended though we were =P

So 8 of us, me, wan wei, shi min, Eleanor, jian wei, jia le, swee keong and Mr. Hong took the mrt to Orchard Road. We had lunch together at Yoshinoya. We insisted on paying our own bills though Mr. Hong had so kindly proposed to treating us. Haha, for me it’s so fortunate just not having to eat lunch alone, or with my reflection =P

Then of course, was K-Box session! Haha, it was so fun lar. Much more fun than I had expected. Walau, Shi Min and Eleanor make the perfect duet, Jia Le scares people with his david tao voice (Where’s that voice coming from?!!), Wan Wei’s J-Pop so cute, Jing Jie and Jian Wei’s just… ahah. At one point I laughed till my sides cramped. =P Btw, I sang till I couldn’t sing no more! (from 2 to 7.30) =P My throat hurt.

Everyone went home, so me, Jian Wei and his friend Jing Jie walked to the MRT station. Turns out Jing Jie’s from City Harvest church! ARGH! I really wanna go there, if only it wasn’t so far away… He’s a real enthusiastic Christian, so full of energy just trying so hard to get Jian Wei to go to church. Haha. In so many ways, they’re so alike, so like brothers (like they claim to be), but in this area, they’re so different.

Heh, that aside, I got ‘un-NERDified’ by them. Evil lar. Say I look like a little kid with my kukumalu bag (yes I know it’s a stupid childish bag). They pulled my bag down low like everyone else in Singapore does and say I tuck in too much of my shirt and that I wear my skirt too high. Haha. Eleanor had tried to pull out my shirt from my skirt this afternoon too. =P Didn’t realize I was that nerdy =P

Well lots of packing and cleaning up to do, hope I don’t’ miss the bus tomorrow… =) Can’t wait to see everyone =)

so happy. =)

Woke up with a nice dream today. =) Y

You know how you don’t usually remember your dreams? Not the case today. I remembered nearly all the details. Me and ivan went to watch ‘the incredibles’ at the cinema =) Zhao Xing was there somewhere in the dream doing something but aiya he suddenly disappeared. =P Hehe… so happy =)… then reality hit me.

Oww! My ulcers hurt. =( Yesterday there were 2, today 3. I really really gotta lay off those nutella stuff (BUT IT’S SO SO SO GOOD…!!).

Anyway, went to school today, had econs again. Hehe, I’m starting to like these one to one econs sessions, different day, different teacher, how interesting. =)

Today is Mrs. Helen Chong, one of the more interesting ones. She’s the lecturer who threw me into deep depression the first day I came to econs lecture at AJC. Yep. She told us supply curves weren’t straight and I just couldn’t accept it. She looks quite scary though, like one of those strange ladies with a poodle in her arm. I remember the look she gave us at lecture. ::Shudders:: I miss Ms. Ng. Hehe but guess what… she greeted me like a long lost friend or something. With all those books in her hand she smiled a freakishly large smile, “Helloooo my dearrrr”. Its not that her smile was fake, it was genuine. But it was scary. Genuinely scary. You know what’s more scary? She’s really really nice!! Haha. She keeps saying, “my DEAR, you know more than most of my students already!” or, “my DEAR, you’re definitely ready for the common test!”… Haha, flattery. *blushes* I’m SO happy….. =P Then she asks me, “so do you still want to have a class tomorrow with mrs. Tan? I DO think you can manage monopolies on your own”. “Yeah I think I need to lar…. I’m not that good….”, stupid me. Just realized I ONLY have econs tomorrow and nothing else except for PE at 3. Ahhhh!! Not so happy anymore… =(

After that I went to sembawang to do my student EZ Link card and had my lunch at a food court there. Alone again. =(

But I sat at a place where there was a mirror to my left. Me n my reflection having lunch together =) Hehe. So happy. =)

Then when I tapped my EZ Link card when I got off at Newton station I realized they only charged me $0.50. Student rate! So happy! =).

Went back to the hostel, watched tv, did homework, slept, normal routine. Ivan called. Gonna watch lots of movies when I get back… So happy! =)

Hehe, got some Chinese drama show re-run to watch later. So happy =)

3 more days…. So happy =)

medical check-up

Hehe. Had my first real medical check up today. Complete with eye test, height/weight measurement, urine test (yuck!), blood test (ouch!) n x-ray. Haha I had to change into this bathrobe-like thingy before I went for the x-ray. The doctor asked me to breathe in and hold then hug this big board in front of me. Apparently I didn’t breathe in enough and u know what she said, “You understand? Speak English? Breathe in and hold!” Eesh.

Finally after that was lunch time! Sigh. Sat in one of those seats facing the walls again. But this time I had a friend, kailin. =P not so bad I guess.

Then I decided to buy some grapes. We went to Cold Storage and ended up getting… distracted =P. Didn’t buy the grapes coz it costs 9.90 Sing Dollars. Gosh. Hehe but we found ourselves some really really great stuff. PEANUT BUTTER M&Ms!! I dunno if they have it in malaysia, but I don’t know HOW I could’ve possibly missed it… my GOSH… they’re SO SO good…. AHHH! We also bought bread spread. (The spreads here in the hostel are quite horrible. They DILUTE the peanut butter. With water. ::shudders::) We bought this chocolate-banana spread and NUTELLA.

After dinner we sat in front of the TV in the common room with all our spreads and biscuits from another friend june teng. With a chopstick and our bare hands we dipped the biscuits into the chocolate… eating while we watched a TV programme about food…. =P OMG do u know what it tastes like?!! NUTELLA IS the creamy choclatey stuff in Ferrero Rocher. I dunno HOW I could’ve missed it before… Well. We ate and ate and ate till my 2 ulcers in my mouth couldn’t take it no more… =(

There’s a treasure hunt going on in our hostel now. (yep, it’s 9pm) and their having it in the dining hall. Wonder what treasures they could possibly have… (Left over pudding most probably =P)

Anyway, summary of the day:- Offences committed: 2 (Sleeping and eating in the common room) Number of times caught: Once (only for sleeping =P) Items deposited into the food cupboard: 2 (chocolate banana-spread and crispy m&Ms). Items deposited out of the food cupboard: 1 (Chocolate chip cookies – chips Ahoy!). Homework due: Econs MCQs and Essays. Homework done: None. Not too bad a day…. =) Btw, to all the people back at college… exams tomorrow? ;) Good luck! =P

hmph. fine.

Sigh. K lar. Summary of the day. Didn't cross the road even when there were no cars coz the walking man sign on the traffic light wasn't flashing green. Missed the bus coz of that. Had a nice lunch today. Nice food. Nice people. Ice Age is quite nice. Scary Movie sucks. It's the worst movie ever.

darn.

ARRGHHHHH!!! Typed such a long long long entry and i just lost it! It was a happy entry sumore. =( Sorry people now all you have is a sad, angry entry to look at. Lazy to write d. Maybe i'll write again. Maybe not. Sigh. =(

Hehe

oh btw. Flooble. I like that word. Does it have a meaning behind it? I think it does. Doesn't it?

me, myself n i.

Haha, econs today again. This time mdm woon was obviously not as impressed anymore. =P i got more than half the MCQs wrong this time. (What do you expecT?! it's Production n Cost, the FREAKING supply n demand curves aren't straight!!!)

I dunno why but she still says "very good", "well done"... even when i'm crossing more than i'm ticking with the red pen. Either she's not that sane, or she's just real nice. Hmm. Given some thought... she's real nice =)

Today's a lonely day again. Everyone's gone home. No one to eat lunch with. The lunch lady doesn't even seem to care anymore when you take extra servings. So... i decided to go to Suntec (It's a place with lots of shopping complexes). I took the bus and wasn't sure where to stop. Sure enough. I missed the stop. =P This is quite embarrasing coz i've been there... quite a few times d =P

Anyway i walked and walked and walked alone. Till i got hungry. Then i went to the food court and bought my dinner. No place to sit. I had to sit at those miserable individual seats facing the wall. Then i found it interesting. People sitting there were all eating. Alone. All alone. Like me.

Then i took a bus back. Haha, it occurs to me that when one is lonely, one pays more attention to things or people surrounding you. But not the important stuff. Quite petty stuff. Like this uncle who sat right in front of me on the bus back to the hostel. I recognised him! He was in the same bus as me when i went there. Haha. I noticed he still has that plastic bag with him. Then i notice the indian lady next to him kinda gives him the look when he moves in the crowded bus, trying, with so much effort to get his pen and notebook out. It seems like such a chore to him. Oh but then there's my stop. And i get off the bus. Poor old man. He looks lonely too. =(

i hate school.

Sucky day today. =( Econs extra classes starts at 8am. It's one to one extra class coz i'm the only second batch ASEAN scholar who takes econs.

Haha, i think it's so funny when the teacher, mdm. woon opens her eyes in amazement when i actually finished Elasticity and the questions too. Then i tell her i've learned Externalities and her jaw drops. But then i tell her i took econs back in college. Then... hahaha. But she's real nice. Keeps saying i'm a fast learner even when i have half of the MCQs wrong. =P

After 10 had nothing to do, went to do the student EZ Link card (like the touch n go in msia) but got rejected coz i have to have both my student IDs. I only have one.

So spent my time lounging around with nothing to do, can't go back coz i have PE at 3. Sent out my complaints to ivan, n he calls back. Haha i get to talk to chin chuan sumore. That really saved the wreck of my day...And i find out it's Jeannie's brithday! Happy birthday Jeannie! =) Heard u guys had lots of fun ;)

Then there's PE, same routine, run 10 rounds, do sit ups n stuff....

And when i come back to the hostel.. it's so quiet. Only 3 people left in our cluster. =( Everyone's gone home for the hols and i'm stuck here.

Argh! 9 more days.... i can't wait. =)

blog. how interesting =)

Haha lemme try out this blog thingy... wonder if anyone will read this. Ah well as you guys probably know by now, I'm in the beautiful Land of the Kiasu - Singapore.

I can't believe how stupid i was thinknig life here was going to be relatively easy. Past few weeks have been nothing short of torture. I finally understand the meaning of HOMESICK.

I miss everything bout Malaysia. Home, Astro, Streamyx, college, Friends, family the people in general. Anderson Junior College is really like secondary school, only difference is they allow you to bring handphones. During classes at very odd times i suddenly feel like bursting into tears.

Well after i've gone past the tears and sobby sobby stage, I had to get past the regretting stage. That was real hard but finally here I am. There's no turning back. Bring it on! Land of the Kiasu ;)