driving lessons, finally!

Had my first driving lesson today, finally!

It sucks to not have a driving license in Malaysia, especially when all my other friends can drive, its even worse when those who are taking the driving test along with you are all younger than you....

Anyway, I woke up at 6am to get ready for my first driving lesson that I thought was at 7am.

I waited, and waited and waited til 7.30am came and realised that the lesson was set to 7.30 not 7 in the first place. Hah.

Well, my driving instructor was Chinese but spoke to me in English. At first he brought me to a quiet road in front of the BU 4 school and let me drive the car and make U-turns for a while. All those practices with my Dad paid off :)

He said that I was unusually calm and steady for a noob-driver. "I can't say that about most lady drivers I know", he even said. Hahaha!!! :D

Then he taught me to drive up a slope, as well as parking. He had a formula for everything, especially the parking. Reverse til you see the first pole in the middle of the backseat window, until the backtire is on the yellow line, until I can see the seventh pole at the back and stuff like that.. he even drew diagrams! Like in real life we'll have poles to look at when we park lar.

Anyway, we went to the SDC circuit and did the slope and the parking.

I passed the slope on my first try! :D

Which was quite amazing cos I was sure I'd be rolling down backwards over and over again like the others, til the cars behind me get fed up.

The parking wasn't too good though. Haha. I could tell my instructor was really frustrated at me 'cos I was saying 'Oh oh okay' to all of his instructions but following none of them heh. :P It was just really difficult for me lar 'cos I totally suck at estimation :(

On the second try at the slope though, I failed, TWICE. Guess that first success was a fluke :P Haha, how embarassing it was to go up the slope and roll backwards before I reach.

Anyway, he still said that I was a FAST LEARNER! And that he would let me drive to SDC on my second lesson :D Wow.

Overall it was a good first driving lesson. Felt like the time I finally learnt to ride my bike.

chaos

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applying to US universities is a pain.

really, why can't they make it simple!? Like the Aussies? or the New Zealanders? or even the Malaysians! I think the process is less painstaking almost everywhere else.

Teacher recommendations?!?! Counsellor Report?! School Report?! My ranking?!?! All have to be in PAPER?! My freakin' teachers are in bloody Singapore! at the OTHER end of the causeway!!!! All the phone calls to them busy, BUSY teachers cost me a bomb. And all the time I have to be nice. Real nice. I need them to say nice things bout me.

SATs?! TOEFL?!?! The registration fee itself is already sky-high. And now they charge to send to each institution. Mommy screamed at the sight of her credit card bill, the ones that had to do with collegeboard.com... every thing is x3.6 damnit. And the application fee!! USD 70 for cornell and northwestern each. I've GOT to get the scholarship now. Just to compensate for the while application and registration nightmare. Bloody daylight robbery.

Financial Forms?!! GOD HELP ME.

How on earth am I supposed to prove that I have USD 75,000 on deposit?! Mommy doesn't even have one third of that amount, not even in Ringgit!! Curse the exchange rate.

Had to ask my aunt. I admit. She's been nice about it. But I hate it. Hate the feeling of having to depend on others. Can't stand the niceties anymore. All year I've but said 'Hi auntie!' during family gatherings and now I've suddenly joined in the conversation, or at least tried to, just to be nice. Smile, when she thinks out loud that I'm too ambitious. AMBTIOUS?! (That's probably the nicest of what she's thinking bout me. Sorry I'm just not a relatives kind of person. I believe relatives are judgemental. They can't help it. It's like in their nature to be judgemental) Chuckles. I applied to the worst of the ivies and almost all others I applied to are state universities. 4 of which their names have barely been heard around here before. AMBITIOUS. THIS IS CERTAINLY NOT AMBITIOUS. AMBITIOUS is applying to Princeton only and expecting to get accepted.


That aside, she got me those letters. Stupid Standard Chartered. They could've signed the stupid forms and saved me the time and the 125 RINGGIT! gosh. 25ringgit for one stupid letter in place of those signatures that should've been on the forms. And they wouldn't even write it right. The universities got it and spit it back. Now I've gotta beg my aunt to beg them to at least put the stupid amount on letter. Its either that or show that she has at least USD 75,000 on deposit. I'm going nuts.

I should've applied to need-blind universities. Then again I'm hoping for an open scholarship that'll give USD 14K per year max, just bout enough to foot less than half of the tuition fee at these universities, let's not even start with the living costs.

What bout the Bank Negara Scholarship?! My 2nd uncle insists that I try out for that. Full scholarship to the university of my choice anywhere in the world. Ah, but nothing's free in this world right? There's a bond, but of course. Maybe it's worth it. Maybe I'll just go there for the experience and give up any thought of possibly working there.

And what if all else fails?!

Singapore?! NUS?! I don't think I did well enough in A-Levels to get into Business. I seriously don't think so. Gut feeling. Logically speaking as well.

Horrible prospect. Maybe I should've stayed in HELP.

Besides, NUS is not cheap. Mommy has to sell her shares anyhow. Dad can but watch and help by sustaining himself with his pay. Debts to pay. Stupid shoplot. God how I wish we were rich.

AND WHEN ARE THE RESULTS COMING OUT?!

2nd of March?! The initial plan was to go back to take my results and stay there to work til July or August. The intial plan was to get a place to stay with carmen and someone else and find a job and earn singapore dollars. The initial plan was to get over the oldham hall idea since the management didn't even bother to interview me.

And now the initial plan is screwed up. Sorry, it's beyond screwed.

I have my driving test on 5th of March here in KL. And I might not even pass. There's hope now, also, that I can get that trip to Japan with the LIONS club that I should've gone on a year ago. Now they're saying I have to host again, but maybe not. I could just go straight to Japan in May. And the stupid AIG Scholarship people. Only shortlisted applicants will be notified. WHEN?! WHERE?! There's not even a proper website to know things. And the chances of me getting this scholarship are so slim I try not to think about it. Anyway if, by any chance I get shortlisted for an interview, the freakin' interview's gonna be HERE! IN KL. And what bout all the stupid university stuff. I've gotta change my mailing address. And as if the chaos wasn't enough Ms. Mag opened up another possibilty at the worst possible time, asking me if I'm up for the AHM interview. And my parents, they'd be worried sick. Calling me every 5 minutes to make sure my application is done, or that I have vegetables to eat.

ARRRGH. I've never consistently been in such a bad temper before. (HMM, grammatical error there). You know what I mean lar. I'm being mean to people around me. Even to my brother, who amazingly, has been nice all this while. Guess the roles have been reversed, my turn to be the troubled rebellious child, the one that needs attention. Mommy called me 'needy' the other day. Needy is what I am now I guess.



I just want to do what I want to. But I just can't and I know it but I can't get over it.

Life's a bitch.

At least right now it is.

the V-day

so.

happy valentine's day!

nothing great about it, it's really just another day with too much traffic on the road. But anyway it was an eventful day for me, which is good, because i haven't had an eventful day for a very, very long time.

Meet up with my beloved ex-roomie, manpreet today :). My kichimayom and I had lunch together and watched a chic flick, the Holiday.

It was not bad, very feel-good, but honestly, it wasn't as good as expected. (I expected a lot cos a friend of kichi's came to watch it the second time haha.) It was a little slow and draggy and toward the middle I kinda was just waiting for it to end, maybe cos kichi had to go halfway through the movie cos her bf came. But anyway the ending was nice, but nothing out of the ordinary.







What I really liked about it was the whole holiday warm fuzzy feeling inside kinda thing, especially with the 2 adorable kids, sophie and olivia. They were absolutely charming!! Kate winslet was great in the movie I think, she was very much the picture of a sad, sad woman who loves but doesn't get loved back and still doesnt' have a clue. But jack black in the movie was kinda weird for me, cos he was playing a very, erm, normal guy in the movie. Maybe i'm just not used to him in movies like these cos I haven't seen Shallow Hal yet :S







Well, after that, went to have dinner with lup wai, ivan, foogie, eongxien, weikeat, shengwei. Bah ku teh at ss2. We stayed only a short while cos eongxien, my favourite neighbour :), won free tickets to Music and Lyrics tonight! Thanks btw! :D





We got past the traffic jam and went to watch that movie, and wow, I had a blast laughing non-stop. It was really really funny. Hugh grant was very funny in the show. Super funny. Ok I don't have any other more sophisticated words in my vocab to express 'funny'. That tall, tall woman from 3rd rock from the Sun and Ray's brother (from Everybody loves Raymond) were very, very funny too!! Oh and those who haven't watched it, do stay for the credits, cos they play that hillarious POP video at the end again with really, funny statements about what happened to the characters.







And I do think its one of the best chick flicks I've seen, with the exception of 50 first dates.







50 first dates is still the best cos it made me laugh and cry at the same time. Music & Lyrics just made me laugh. Didn't really come close to crying, though there was DEFINITELY that warm and fuzzy feeling.







anyway, i really do think Music & Lyrics is a must-watch! Now I can't get that corny 80's POP song out of my head. "oooh... POP!, goes my heart..."And the vision of hugh grant in his ridiculous hair and tight pants prancing about, jumping up and down at his keyboard won't go away. I really don't know why!! Haha, i still want to laugh now.

maybe you can see why.

Anyway, this wasn't such a bad v-day after all. Maybe i'll just spend my v-days watching chick flicks in the future. I like it. :)

hooray!!

who says I waste time at home?

i created my own background.

this orange stripey creation I did myself with photoshop. Hee hee. :)

do comment.

*giggles*

Was working yesterday at OU Giant promoting F&N again when the Pepsi girl tapped my shoulder and told me that there were 2 customers asking for the price of a carton of Vanilla Coke.

Everyone seems to think Coke is part of F&N!

Maybe it is I'm not sure myself, :P but it was sure not MY responsibilty, i ain't getting no pay for that. But well, in the spirit of good customer service I offered to carry the carton to the counter for a price check.

When i saw the customers myself i quit complaining.

OMG, these 2 guys were tall and built, and they kinda look like them Spanish footballers hee hee. TOTAL EYE CANDY! It's rare 'cos mostly all we get are aunties and uncles :D.

They both had hair like Dr.Sheppard on Greys' Anatomy (less elaborate though), and the taller one had his covered with a cap. It seems that they had some difficulty trying to communicate with the promoters, cos' they were speaking English in a heavy foreign accent, an accent that clearly didn't come from a place where English was the native language.

But they could understand perfectly fine when I said, "if you really want, i can get a price check at the counter up front".

They smiled and said 'Thanks, we would like that'. And whoa, that was definitely worth the smile hee hee.

Anyway they were very kind, the taller one said, 'No, no, I'll carry it'. And so they followed me to the counter but on the way I bumped into the merchandiser and he took over.

So I went back about my job.

Then I realised after a while that they were back. They were looking at the other drinks while the other merchandisers explained to them that the price check failed 'cos they don't sell them in cartons or something like dat.

Anyway before they left they both stopped to say 'thank you' to me again.

'Sure, no problem', I said.

Then the taller one looked me in the eyes and said,

"You're very beautiful, you know that?".

I smiled in a very very silly manner but managed to say thanks. :P

I get 'pretty' all the time from aunties and uncles, but this is something else. Haha, a very, very tall and good-looking stranger, telling me i'm beautiful even in my oversized bright yellow F&N t-shirt, my mess of a hair tied up in a pony tail and the pesky pimple growing very visibly on my chin. What very kind people. :) Hee hee.

9 crimes - Damien Rice

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away
when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If u don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
With you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
She's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you dont shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?I
f you don't shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

No...


beautiful song. disturbing video.