***Triple C ...

Went to a Christian Citizenship Course today. It's part of the BB Curriculum. Hehe, i met another AJ Primer there. (Though i don't quite remember his name) I'm not alone... :)

I love the first trainer!! Her name's Anna Marie, a middle aged lady who just sorta gives you this warm fuzzy feeling inside when she smiles. (And she smiles a lot) She has compassion, kindness, sincerity just pouring out of her very being. Deeply rooted though she is - to values, her own principles and most importantly to God. She does the same things standard motivation seminar trainers do, but with flair and she drives the point home plus! hits the spot right at the heart :) And she does that all with grace. And humility!! She kept telling us what a pleasure it is to have spent the morning with us and how much she has learned from us. Prototype post-seminar remark but with unmistakable sincerity. Wow. Amazing woman of God!

She asked us to come up with our own mission statement in life plus a logo!
I gave it some extra thought and came up with this:

"Love God, Love others, Be true to self"

I'll show the logo on my blog next time. Hehe. No scanner no time now.

Anyway, i resolve to achieve my mission statement.

Help me my Lord :)

***Updates...

Argh. Homework homework n homework. Barely got time to blog but here are some updates...

Wednesday: Met up with Yew Jhin!!!! He came to Singapore :) Haha we went to eat dinner at McD's n walked orchard road and sat down and talk and talk and talked. Wow, i'm missing out on so much back at college!! Missing everyone back there too.... Darn.

Thursday: Ren Xin's birthday!! Haha i dunno why but i woke up feeling kinda excited. it's not even my birthday!! Haha. Weird, maybe i just wanted see the look on her face when i give her Yew Jhin's present. And it turns out to be this cute little pig soft toy, which she later on named "cow". (Yeah man, she's one confused gal). Heh, twas great seeing her so happy throughout the day. :)

It's friday night now. But i'm not at cell group. Yeah, coz of some hostel thing lar must be back at 9. Time to do hw again.... toodle-loo! :)

***He never disappoints.

"Draw close to Him, and He will draw close to you..."
---->James 4:8

You can be going to church every week and still miss God.
You can be rushing for cell group every week and still miss God.
You can be attending bible study consistently and still miss God.
You can be praying for revival everyday and still miss God.

Oh man. I need help.

At 2.30am in the morning, I cried out to God... "Please show Yourself to me....ahhhhh!!!!" I'm just SO desperate....

True enough, during church service today, God's presence was felt so strongly. Tears fell for no apparent reason. It was not the song, the mood or emotion. Nothing else could've been so strong and real. It was His presence :) There's no greater delight than that!!! He gave me visions, small though they were, i'm trusting on it to lead me on.

Anyway church today was great. :) Was late for bible study though :P But great nonetheless.

Btw, one thing i realised today, though i've lost lots of friends back in Malaysia, God still has blessed me with a few great ones here. :) Jie Kai n Jie Han decided to accompany me home coz i was alone even after waiting so long to go back with the others. Kwang Ying, my roomate, kinda got caught n lectured by the boarding master for secretly da-pau ing my dinner for me. And i never even asked her to get me dinner! Haha. Whoa. N wui jia, my lovely hostel mate, hehe. She understands what i'm going through in our walk with God. :) N Tiff-ah-Nee and Janis Ah ma too. Hehe. So sweet, they wrote me postcards!! :P

so many blessings... and still counting... :)

***God... where are you?!?!

"Here I am humbled
by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am,
knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb
Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrificeMajesty,
Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty
Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire
Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice..."

----> Delirious? Majesty

Oh man. I love this song.:)

I feel really really bad coz i've wasted nearly the whole day, not studying when i should've been doing so.

I just feel really sick n tired of studying and struggling to finish homework.

Never felt so stressed about studies before.

But then again studies somehow never mattered so much in the past. Contrary to what most would think though, i've discovered lately that i'm not so intellectually gifted after all. I need to work my butt off to understand some stupid simple thing!!! Now i'm responsible for my studies. I owe it to MoE, I owe it to my parents, I owe it to myself, I owe it to God, I owe it to everyone to do well.

Oh man.

And just when it's near impossible for me to even pass my promos. I'm six months behind in everything!

Then God decides to hide Himself from me, at this moment.
He decides to test my faith now, at this very moment.
I'm tired. God...please carry my burdens for me...
I will rely on You for a miracle...

"Faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see."
--- Hebrews 11:1

In You I trust.

***Festival of Praise...

Oh my gosh...

Festival of Praise was good.
Hillsong and Delirious were great.
The presence of God was... amazing.

The Singapore Indoor Stadium was packed! The other E314 friends all started Q-ing up at 4.30pm just so we could go in when the gates open at 6pm. Me n Jing Jie came late (my fault sorry :P) so we had to, ahem, 'find our way' to the middle of the Q where the other CG members were. Hehe. We did it! Thanks to Jie Kai and his innocent looks. When the gates finally opened we had to rush in. No food allowed in the stadium, so we tried as much as we can to gobble down the bread we bought. :P Walau. We really looked like idoits there and then.

We waited till 7.30pm.

The praise n worship session finally started! Hillsong came up first, then Delirious. WOW! Dunno how to describe lar it was just great. :) In the end so many people accepted Jesus into their hearts. Great miracles just come when God is there. :)

The whole thing ended quite late so i missed the hostel curfew :P But all's good. :)

ahhhh!!!!

i lost the entry i took 30 minutes to type.
darn blog. You're a waste of my time. :(