Fraility.

have you ever watched 'the Hours'?

Yeah that show with Nicole Kidman, Meryl Streep and the lot.

I still wonder why Laura, the pregnant wife in the show, wanted to do herself in (not to mention the baby). She had it all, didn't she? The perfect home and family. Was it her neighbour that day? The fact that she brokedown and told of her illness?Just a spur of the moment?

and Virginia? the estranged author who wrote 'Mrs.Dalloway'. but that I could understand. It's difficult living to please those around you. She had a choice though, didn't she? Why didn't she get on the train to London?

and Clarrissa and the party she wants to throw for her dying friend and poet, Richard. Why did the party matter so much?! And what's stopping her from being true to herself? She could've chosen to be happy.



Grr. I find it puzzling. Humans, such irrational, complex beings.

I think we're not capable of handling our own lives. We never know what's best for ourselves no matter how wise we think we are.

Or maybe I just haven't seen enough of life (and death) yet. No maturity of thought you say. maybe. I dunno.


Sigh.

faith.

matthew 6:33

Following God is so not a bed of roses.
Serving Him takes tremendous sacrifice, faith, and a cheerful heart that's right.
It's so difficult!
But if God says you can move mountains with faith the size of a mustard seed then, i guess, you can. you definitely can.

I'm gonna go for it this time. I hear God calling me out of my comfort zone. I feel his good work starting in me, equiping me for the bumpy ride ahead. And yes, most importantly the heart. He's softened my heart yet put determination in me that I never knew I had.

Whatever He calls for, He provides for.

I'm gonna stretch my faith this time, i'm letting go, letting God, taking the plunge, risking it all, leaning totally on His strength and knowing in my heart that He'll pull me through. Meanwhile I'll jump off this edge, flap my wings like mad, and trust that His grace is sufficient for me. (:

Haha, so sorry for the funny imagery. That's really how it feels like now in my heart.

Tif needs a cell group helper and finally, for the first time in my life, I'll be serving in a ministry. God's timing is 'impecable' i must say. Haha. You can trust that He'll never make it easy. Of all the times He's calling me NOW. When the A levels are so near i can smell it. When my chem is at F standard and I need nothing less than a C for prelims in 3 weeks time. Gosh.

But I will not be shaken by circumstances!! My strength is in Him. And yes, I haven't felt such peace, and joy, in a long time. Thank you Jesus.


Give me faith, more faith. (:

random.from taiyong's blog

The reason why we often read nice-looking sentences in itialics, thinking that they're some famous individual's quote, is that they are made to look special. And if you think about it, this particular set of itialicised words are kind of lame.

"T. Y. Foong"


Slow to learn their lesson are the ones who read this second line.
"Un-famous Author"


All hope is lost! Weird are those who never learn their lesson, because they keep reading nice-looking, itialicised sentences."
Now Infamous Writer

true friends are hard to come by.

I'M SORRY EVERYONE.

i forgot that alarms ring even when phone's turned off.
i can't believe that happened in an ACTUAL A level exam.
this is the most difficult listening compre i've encountered in my life.
i'm really sorry i disturbed everyone's chain of thoughts.
grrr.

anyway, been nostalgic of late.
i don't wanna live in the present. future's good too. anything but the present.

God be with me, please.

poems

The Night Has a Thousand Eyes
The night has a thousand eyes,
And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
With the dying sun.
The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done.

francis william bourdillon

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To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded.

Raph Waldo Emerson

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If you can't be a pine on the top of the hill,
Be a scrub in the valley-but be
The best little scrub by the side of the rill;
Be a bush if you can't be a tree.
If you can't be a bush be a bit of the grass,
And some highway happier make;
If you can't be a muskie then just be a bass-
But the liveliest bass in the lake!
We can't all be captains,
we've got to be crew,
There's something for all of us here,
There's big work to do,
and there's lesser to do,
And the task you must do is the near.
If you can't be a highway then just be a trail,
If you can't be the sun be a star;
It isn't by size that you win or you fail-
Be the best of whatever you are!

-Douglas Malloch